As most of you know, birthday's were very important to Alan! He was so funny about how he would want a surprise party, but wouldn't say it. He knew that I/we would pull through to celebrate the day of his birth. Today he would have been 37. That is unbelievable to me. In the short 33 years that he was on this Earth, he had such an impact on every person that came in contact with him. Especially me. John sometimes says that Alan and I were perfect. We were. God knew what He was doing when he allowed us to meet on that highway that hot July night in 1995.
Today I have found myself trying to figure out a way to celebrate the time Alan had here with all of us. I don't quite know how because it seems no matter what I do, it will not compare to the life we all miss so much. Sometimes it seems like such a lifetime ago, and then other times it feels just like it is happening all over again.
As I opened my eyes this morning, ironically laying in the same spot that he bravely left this world, I thought of his laugh. And weirdly enough, John laughed just like him this morning. I think Alan helped John find me and I am so grateful for that. Alan knew I could not live life alone, and he knew John would be good for me.
I just wanted to tell you all that I am thinking of all of you today as we all still grieve in our own way and I want you to know that even though everyone may not agree with what the others do, we all still need love.
There are some broken relationships within this group of email lists and I pray everyday that reconciliation will come. We are all just longing for love and acceptance. Just as Alan embraced life so whole heartedly, I pray each of you do. At least for today!
Alan always said life is a journey. When things are bad, cry for only a moment and then just do what you can to make things better.
I love you all!
Happy Birthday Houka!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
30 Things About V
30 Things About V
1. I am a child of God. I try to live HIS will everyday. I love our church (even after visiting around, we are pulled back to SCC!!).
2. I have been blessed by God so much! I had a wonderful first marriage to Alan Weaver, whom I miss everyday. His love for music and humor are two things that I hold on to. So much more of course! His life impacted so many people in a good way. He is truly missed.
3. God has Blessed me with a beautiful husband and son that I am soooo glad and excited to enjoy the journey of life with!
4. I have never been good on my own. I love being married. I am a true believer that God created us to depend on one another, help one another, love unconditionally and enjoy the little things in life together.
5. I love that John loves me enough to always think of me, put up with my crap and surprise me with little and big things all of the time. NEVER a dull moment! It is WONDERFUL!!
6. I LOVE being a mom to Jackson! He is such a good boy! So funny and sweet. Never know what he will come up with!! Little ham!
7. I would love to have a baby and pray that God will bless us with one. That is our biggest prayer this year.
8. I miss the closeness of my family. Things have happened and things are not the same.
9. I love my in-laws---ALL of them!!!! Weaver/Hopes and Masons!
10. I love being an Aunt! Love to see my nieces and nephews grow and change. I hate I can't see them all of the time!!!! (12 nephews-6 I have not met in person but have seen pictures and 6 nieces!)
11. I miss a lot of my friends and family that I used to be closer too. (Alan's family especially)
12. People tell my sister and I that we look like twins. We don't think so and think it is hilarious!
13. I am blessed to still have Grandparents alive and close by. I do miss my Grandma Kemp sooo much.
14. I love rain!
15. My favorite color is pink and my favorite number is 9.
16. I love telling people Happy Birthday so I try to keep all the dates on my calendar. Everyone deserves a special day.
17. I love to read but never have the time. It takes me FOREVER to finish a book.
18. I love to take baths. I sometimes take two a day and sometimes fall asleep (Dana has always fussed at me about this! :)) I have even been known to make Mary Kay calls from the tub!
19. I love doing Mary Kay. I just hate it when my sweet customers have to wait for me to order things. I love that they stick with me though!! Thank you! You are all wonderful!!
20. I love to eat hot dogs cut up with cheese on them. Wieners and cheese baby!
21. I hated High School. Never felt I fit in anywhere.
22. LOVED Winthrop!!! Fit in and opened up, became more confident in myself.
23. I miss working with kids, but enjoy seeing my customers achieve their goals.
24. I like to tent camp! My favorite is waking up when it is really cold and having a yummy breakfast by the fire. I LOVE to kayak and when I can do both at the same place, it is a wonderful time!!!
25. I like to be organized and know what is going on. Therefore, I like to plan. I like to be spontaneous sometimes too of course!
26. I love snuggling with my hubby and son on our Friday night pizza and movie nights!
27. I love cold weather. Love to wear sweaters. But of course here in the South, I don't really get to do that a lot.
28. One of my guilty pleasures is Family Guy. I know it is very sac religious at times and I change it then, but it is so funny to see a baby that says what he thinks-in an English accent!!
29. I CAN'T STAND IT when people say: liberry for library, sunt for sent, acrosst for across, axed for asked, screet for street, stroll for scroll, indivjul for individual, and hiever for however!!!
30. I realize life changes so fast and so often sometimes I feel I am a completely different person and this life cannot be real!
1. I am a child of God. I try to live HIS will everyday. I love our church (even after visiting around, we are pulled back to SCC!!).
2. I have been blessed by God so much! I had a wonderful first marriage to Alan Weaver, whom I miss everyday. His love for music and humor are two things that I hold on to. So much more of course! His life impacted so many people in a good way. He is truly missed.
3. God has Blessed me with a beautiful husband and son that I am soooo glad and excited to enjoy the journey of life with!
4. I have never been good on my own. I love being married. I am a true believer that God created us to depend on one another, help one another, love unconditionally and enjoy the little things in life together.
5. I love that John loves me enough to always think of me, put up with my crap and surprise me with little and big things all of the time. NEVER a dull moment! It is WONDERFUL!!
6. I LOVE being a mom to Jackson! He is such a good boy! So funny and sweet. Never know what he will come up with!! Little ham!
7. I would love to have a baby and pray that God will bless us with one. That is our biggest prayer this year.
8. I miss the closeness of my family. Things have happened and things are not the same.
9. I love my in-laws---ALL of them!!!! Weaver/Hopes and Masons!
10. I love being an Aunt! Love to see my nieces and nephews grow and change. I hate I can't see them all of the time!!!! (12 nephews-6 I have not met in person but have seen pictures and 6 nieces!)
11. I miss a lot of my friends and family that I used to be closer too. (Alan's family especially)
12. People tell my sister and I that we look like twins. We don't think so and think it is hilarious!
13. I am blessed to still have Grandparents alive and close by. I do miss my Grandma Kemp sooo much.
14. I love rain!
15. My favorite color is pink and my favorite number is 9.
16. I love telling people Happy Birthday so I try to keep all the dates on my calendar. Everyone deserves a special day.
17. I love to read but never have the time. It takes me FOREVER to finish a book.
18. I love to take baths. I sometimes take two a day and sometimes fall asleep (Dana has always fussed at me about this! :)) I have even been known to make Mary Kay calls from the tub!
19. I love doing Mary Kay. I just hate it when my sweet customers have to wait for me to order things. I love that they stick with me though!! Thank you! You are all wonderful!!
20. I love to eat hot dogs cut up with cheese on them. Wieners and cheese baby!
21. I hated High School. Never felt I fit in anywhere.
22. LOVED Winthrop!!! Fit in and opened up, became more confident in myself.
23. I miss working with kids, but enjoy seeing my customers achieve their goals.
24. I like to tent camp! My favorite is waking up when it is really cold and having a yummy breakfast by the fire. I LOVE to kayak and when I can do both at the same place, it is a wonderful time!!!
25. I like to be organized and know what is going on. Therefore, I like to plan. I like to be spontaneous sometimes too of course!
26. I love snuggling with my hubby and son on our Friday night pizza and movie nights!
27. I love cold weather. Love to wear sweaters. But of course here in the South, I don't really get to do that a lot.
28. One of my guilty pleasures is Family Guy. I know it is very sac religious at times and I change it then, but it is so funny to see a baby that says what he thinks-in an English accent!!
29. I CAN'T STAND IT when people say: liberry for library, sunt for sent, acrosst for across, axed for asked, screet for street, stroll for scroll, indivjul for individual, and hiever for however!!!
30. I realize life changes so fast and so often sometimes I feel I am a completely different person and this life cannot be real!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)