30 Things About V

30 Things About V

1. I am a child of God. I try to live HIS will everyday. I love our church (even after visiting around, we are pulled back to SCC!!).
2. I have been blessed by God so much! I had a wonderful first marriage to Alan Weaver, whom I miss everyday. His love for music and humor are two things that I hold on to. So much more of course! His life impacted so many people in a good way. He is truly missed.
3. God has Blessed me with a beautiful husband and son that I am soooo glad and excited to enjoy the journey of life with!
4. I have never been good on my own. I love being married. I am a true believer that God created us to depend on one another, help one another, love unconditionally and enjoy the little things in life together.
5. I love that John loves me enough to always think of me, put up with my crap and surprise me with little and big things all of the time. NEVER a dull moment! It is WONDERFUL!!
6. I LOVE being a mom to Jackson! He is such a good boy! So funny and sweet. Never know what he will come up with!! Little ham!
7. I would love to have a baby and pray that God will bless us with one. That is our biggest prayer this year.
8. I miss the closeness of my family. Things have happened and things are not the same.
9. I love my in-laws---ALL of them!!!! Weaver/Hopes and Masons!
10. I love being an Aunt! Love to see my nieces and nephews grow and change. I hate I can't see them all of the time!!!! (12 nephews-6 I have not met in person but have seen pictures and 6 nieces!)
11. I miss a lot of my friends and family that I used to be closer too. (Alan's family especially)
12. People tell my sister and I that we look like twins. We don't think so and think it is hilarious!
13. I am blessed to still have Grandparents alive and close by. I do miss my Grandma Kemp sooo much.
14. I love rain!
15. My favorite color is pink and my favorite number is 9.
16. I love telling people Happy Birthday so I try to keep all the dates on my calendar. Everyone deserves a special day.
17. I love to read but never have the time. It takes me FOREVER to finish a book.
18. I love to take baths. I sometimes take two a day and sometimes fall asleep (Dana has always fussed at me about this! :)) I have even been known to make Mary Kay calls from the tub!
19. I love doing Mary Kay. I just hate it when my sweet customers have to wait for me to order things. I love that they stick with me though!! Thank you! You are all wonderful!!
20. I love to eat hot dogs cut up with cheese on them. Wieners and cheese baby!
21. I hated High School. Never felt I fit in anywhere.
22. LOVED Winthrop!!! Fit in and opened up, became more confident in myself.
23. I miss working with kids, but enjoy seeing my customers achieve their goals.
24. I like to tent camp! My favorite is waking up when it is really cold and having a yummy breakfast by the fire. I LOVE to kayak and when I can do both at the same place, it is a wonderful time!!!
25. I like to be organized and know what is going on. Therefore, I like to plan. I like to be spontaneous sometimes too of course!
26. I love snuggling with my hubby and son on our Friday night pizza and movie nights!
27. I love cold weather. Love to wear sweaters. But of course here in the South, I don't really get to do that a lot.
28. One of my guilty pleasures is Family Guy. I know it is very sac religious at times and I change it then, but it is so funny to see a baby that says what he thinks-in an English accent!!
29. I CAN'T STAND IT when people say: liberry for library, sunt for sent, acrosst for across, axed for asked, screet for street, stroll for scroll, indivjul for individual, and hiever for however!!!
30. I realize life changes so fast and so often sometimes I feel I am a completely different person and this life cannot be real!

Life in Segments

Three years ago today my life changed dramatically! I have 3 major segments of my life. Childhood, life with Alan and life after Alan. When Alan died, all of my hopes, dreams, wishes, prayers ended abruptly. I was 29 years old and had no clue how to live my life without a calendar full of doctor's appointments and being 'on the ready' for our next medical adventure. Nine wonderful years were spent in and out of doctors offices and hospitals, but it was not all sad. Alan had such life! He was so vibrant and beautiful. And let's not forget his sense of humor. I was awed daily with his upbeat humor and wit.

Today my life is completely different!

This is not a bad thing. Just a different thing. I have learned and grown and discovered so much about myself. A part of me does grieve for things and people that I don't speak to on a daily basis any more. Family and friends have come and gone. Memories are there but people don't talk about them much. People I thought for sure would be there for me haven't been. Some people still call or text or email to see how I am. Others, if I don't initiate contact, I don't hear from them. I guess that is OK, their way of dealing. In other instances I have had to fight for just an ounce of wiggle room to live life after Alan the way I have felt I needed to. All in all, I am so blessed to have the 10 years of memories and love from Alan. I know he was truly an angel and I do miss him everyday.

About a year and half after he died, I was on a trip with my sister, and I prayed a prayer. A prayer that I feel was answered very quickly. Let me explain a little more.

You see, I was having such a hard time being alone. I did not feel comfortable any where I went. There was something missing. Someone missing. So, I would stay out late so not to have to go home to an empty house. I had friends that would let me crash at their houses if I needed to. People I don't think I would necessarily hang out with normally, but good, kind people nonetheless. I was trying to find a way to just feel better and take the pain away. It was a pain that I don't know how to describe. My best friend was gone. Even though he was sick, it was sudden. A kick in the gut that I don't wish on anyone.

I attended a grief group for spouses only. This helped so much. It helped me to see that God had plans for me.

So on this trip I prayed that God would give me a peace about being alone. I prayed that He would send a sweet Christian guy that would love me for me and want to be my best friend. I prayed that this person would be totally understanding of my situation, want kids and accept me for who I am right now.

Not quite a month after I prayed that prayer, John came into my life.

When I saw him, I knew I would marry him.

When I met Jackson, I knew I would be his mom.

It just felt right.

Now, a year and a half after our marriage, I still miss Alan and will always love him and have a place for him in my heart. However, I know God had/has other plans for me. I wake up everyday excited to see what life has in store around the corner.

Recently I have been told, by more than one person, that I have changed. I truly have changed. How could I stay the same person? Doesn't God take us on journeys so we can come out the other side a stronger, better, more knowledgeable person??

I think so. So please, even if you did not know Alan, say a little prayer and thank God that there are people in this world that leave such an impact on us that make us want to be a better person.

Miss you Houka!

The Comedy of Association Football Games

OK, so Jax has been playing football for Blue Ridge Youth Association. (We only have 1 practice and 1 game left!!! Praise the Lord!!) Last night as I sat on a cold concrete step, beside a very grumpy, pouty hubby, watching all the happenings I had several thoughts.
1. Some parents take these sports WAY to seriously!!
2. Sometimes it would be good to have a cheer leading coach that actually knows football and when an appropriate time to cheer "TD, we want a touch down!" would be. I can tell you it is not when we are defense!
3. Also about cheerleaders at this age, they just yell! You cannot tell what in the world they are saying! It is so cute! My favorite is the tiny sweet girl who raises her little leg and yells, "Go Tigers!" and jumps up and down like she just did the most impressive jump anyone has ever accomplished!! I just want to eat her up she is so cute!
4. Wow my parents had to go through this??? (football, cheer leading-that started when I was 2!!, soft ball, basketball and baseball!!)
5. Some people-ok in this case a woman-should not be allowed out of the house-let alone a child's sporting event-wearing what they are wearing! This lady had a chest that scared everyone!! She is in shape but holy yuck!!!
6. Wow! My parents had to go through this??
7. Will we ever really win a game?? (That is probably a NO because we have one more game!)
8. Even though I didn't bring Gatorade, my drinks are still good-little snobs! Be grateful! (smile smile-take my drinks! smile!)
9. This is really great that the kids have so much fun and that is REALLY what it is all about!!

After we got grumpy, cold and melancholy home, we had a great evening. It was just a cold night and Jax had a test today and it is HALLO WEENIE!!!

Fire Proof

Bye Bye Negative Thinking!

Ok, this looks like some kind of drug thing, but I promise it is not.

J and I are doing 'The Love Dare.' This is based on the movie 'Fireproof.' If you have not seen this movie, GO NOW!!! It is remarkable!!

Anyway, each day you have a different Love Dare. Today was to burn a list of negative attributes of your spouse. This was a short list, but so freeing to do!! I have decided I am going to also do this for a list of negatives about myself.

I prayed that God would help me to stay positive in every aspect of my life, marriage and work! Yay! A good day! :)

SEE THE MOVIE-Dare to do the Dare!!

I am 32! Not 12!

I had a 6 mo dental cleaning this morning. I LOVE getting my teeth cleaned. It is like a hair cut to me. I went in and told them everything was ok except I do get food caught in a tooth-usually meat. When the dentist came to look at my teeth I told her the same thing. She said, "Well, the only way to fix all the spaces in your teeth is to get braces." BRACES??? I have always been told I have healthy teeth!! What?? At 32 you are gonna tell me I need braces??? I was so shocked. I did not know what to say. I asked her if I really needed them. She said need was a relative term.
Ok, so I didn't think I have ugly teeth. Now I am really worried!
Jax has to have braces. He is actually going on Tuesday-finally-to get the spacers, etc in. I may see if his orthodontist will look at me and tell me what he thinks.

I want to be/appear younger, but BRACES??? I don't want to go THAT far!!! :)

Wowser Bowser!

Wow it has been almost a year since I posted last! I forgot I even had a blog! LOL! Well, Jax is in the 3rd grade, John is still at FHS and I am still with Greenville County.
Jax plays football and we only have 4 days left in the season! Praise Jesus! It has been trying on all of us. 4 days a week is a lot. I don't know what we would do at this point if we had more than one child!! (I am sure we would manage though!)

Still no baby. Still working on that. Still praying for a Blessing.

Kyndra is preggers and due next month! We are excited about this sweet baby girl! I went over on Sunday and helped her set up some of her room. She has so many clothes! I can't wait to see her in them!

Mark and Amanda added to their sweet family. Annabelle was born in Feb. William turned 6 on the 5th of October. So they are all doing well.

We are looking forward to Halloween and the Holidays! Stay tuned and hopefully I will post sooner!! :)